Autism

What's autism? a pervasive developmental disorder of children, characterized by impaired communication, excessive rigidity, and emotional detachment. (Source: Dictionary.com)

Jason has autism this is a disorder that I'm trying to get comfortable with. Even before we met in person he told me he has autism so I was aware of what his situation is. I've had my own experience with autistic people on all different spectrum's. Jason's autism isn't that severe or hardly noticeable, like some. He is a bit rigidity, but not "excessive", more so trembling than rigid.

We both have communication problems, that's why I think our relationship isn't so affectionate or developing because we lack in the communicative area. Together I think we can work together and figure this out.

I do love Jason for who he is, but people such as my sister or his friend *roll eyes* Corey seem to think I don't. People have to be in my position to understand, they're not dating Jason so they don't know. Yes, his friend knew Jason longer than I have, but his friend isn't dating him; so that sort of pisses me off when people are in my personal/dating life and think they can read my fucking brain. If i didn't love Jason for who he was I would be dating him, and definitely wouldn't do anything sexual with him. As Jason said, "We've only been together for about 3 weeks", so of course we still need time to grow. Jason doesn't like when I'm depressed ( i don't either) or he doesn't like that i have hardly any "hobbies/interests" but i know that doesn't mean he don't accept me for who I am. We both need improvements in ourselves, there's nothing wrong with change, and we both need change. The only two major things i want Jason to change is his clothing and his eating habits. When Jason consumes too much sugar (pop) he beings to act more hyper. All i want him to do is lay off the pop. He's making this so difficult. I want to help him, and i want him to help me.

Jason, I love you