Breaking up with Jason

The other day I was seriously going to break up with jason because he is a racist. Am i stupid for dating a racist? Does that make me seem so desperate because I won't/can't leave him?

I do feel stupid for dating one, and i don't know why i'm putting up with it. Yesterday he didn't mention anything harsh about my race, and he did apologize. Also he said he will try not to say anything negative about my race anymore. Just like the old saying goes, "Once a racist always a racist". I'll be honest, i'm not sure if i'll be with Jason for long due the the fact that i just feel stupid.

I am desperate for a boyfriend. If i leave Jason, i won't have anyone. I won't have anyone to talk to, anyone to hang out with, anyone to love me, anyone that understands me. He's my first friend that i've had since my best friend in 2008. I desperately NEED a friend. I just don't want to be "friends" with Jason, i want to be more than that.

I was actually terrified to have a boyfriend in real life at least, and to have sex. It's not so bad after all. I'm still learning how to be a quality girlfriend, but i don't think i'm doing a good job.