Condom or not?

I don't like condoms :| They feel so fake, like your having sex with plastic, technically you are. I know condoms are #1 for protection, but grrr is there something else out there that doesn't feel like fucking plastic.

I feel so irresponsible when we don't have protected sex, right after intercourse the first thing i think about is being/getting pregnant when i could have prevented it by fucking plastic :| This is about the time when i hate being a woman....WHY LORD! WHY DO WOMEN HAVE TO GET PREGGERS!!!!!!!!!!!

I do want kids one day, just not now. I would love kids with Jason too one day.